You are never what you seem to be, and that is why it is so difficult to find yourself, since you are tainted by what people think of you, expect of you and how they try to make you out, while your true self is carefully wrapped up in the enigma of your destiny, which you can only solve yourself and understand yourself, or try to anyway, since you are hardly likely to succeed; which is your constantly continued education, a hard relentless mercilessly educating tutor. That is why so many obvious public figures are deceivers, by their made up shining personalities they can fool anyone, while those who stay behind as background figures working diligently underground in obstinate persistency without appearing or insisting on rewards and fame are truer and more credible as leaders of the world, and the most clandestine of all you find in satanism.